The Sun Comes After the Rain
photo by Kat 2007
Life isn't about waiting for the storm to
pass.
It's about learning to dance in the rain.
“How do you keep going?” Toby
asked me when I took care of Husband after hot pulp from a paper mill digester had spewed over his body. At the time, I didn’t think about it.
I did the necessary—took care of two elementary aged girls, four-year-old son
and of course, a man in horrendous pain.
“How do you keep going?” Laurie
asked me twenty-three years later when Husband suffered a nervous breakdown. I
answered her with a lot of screaming and yelling. Laurie had become my ear, my listener and walking buddy. Several times a week she picked me up, we drove to the river and
walked the boardwalk. I bawled, complained, yelled, cried and finally wound
down before Laurie drove me home. By the time I arrived home, I once again committed myself to love and take care of the man I didn’t understand.
“How do you keep going?” Debbie
asked me ten years later when doctors diagnosed Husband with a rare cancer, pseudomyxoma
peritonei, which originated in his appendix. I shrugged, knowing I wasn’t
coping well, but hiding my fear and anxiety from family, friends and Husband.
The obvious answer to each
question was, “I pray for wisdom and peace every day. I ask the Lord to give me
the strength to get through the necessary and have enough energy left over to
have fun.” But now I understand more than the obvious.
When Mom took care of me through
six months of breast cancer treatment, I realized why I could keep going—because
Mom did. From my childhood I'd watched her take care of others. She
modeled the role of caregiver before me.
All of us are teaching others to laugh, live and love
whether we know it or not.
Still Lionhearted, Kat
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